a man I used to care for,
a man I used to know.
For every tear that falls,
a wound grows bigger
into my already bleeding soul…”
“See me running, see me running”
A street. High walls surround me. Walls with not a single window. I see others running beside me. My lungs are burning, feet are failing me, it's getting harder to even move, but I run. Fear makes me go on. Fear of pain... pain of love. And I run...
I look back to see my dear's face and I feel a new flow of energy...
“Today, it's in the air again today, another incident that just went off…”
I can't go on anymore. I stopped, to catch my breathe and he leveled up with me... I felt his lips on my skin, the fragrance of his perfume. I felt the sweetness of the love caress and I stopped my run.
He gave me all I needed. He made me feel loved and... I didn't know what to do...
“Did I act like a fool cos I didn't know what to do,
when you gave me just a little bit more than I bargained for,
a little too much in my hands when my hands are tied
It's the ultimate fling to go frolicking,
licking the muck from the soles of the boots of your pride,
everytime you lied”
“If I deny you what you're searching, do I do it out of fear?
Am I ruling out my reason, killing that which I hold dear?”
If I deny what you are looking for and deny I love you... do I do it out of fear really? Am I ignoring my senses by killing what I hold dearest?
“When you're sleeping right next to me, I know you're the one
So when I hear you calling my name, why do I turn away to run”
When you sleep quietly next to me I realize you are the one. When I lie in your arms, I realize your heart beats for me... then why am I running when I hear you call my name... why am I still afraid...
“Out of my way I'm coming, another excuse before I'll stay”
Out of my way! Don't try to stop me! I won't stay here, I can find an excuse to walk away... I can find an excuse to go out on that gray street, to be surrounded again by the high brick walls and to run until my lungs start burning again. I have to go out there!
I need to take my place where I may safely feel alone. Isolated from the pain, from you, from your eyes, from your smile, from your caress...
”So to save face
I'll hold my place
So I may safely feel alone...”
I know I will tire and I'll stop running again. I'll look back again and I'll see your smile again. And the street would be forgotten, my run would be forgotten. I will be yours until I don't feel pain again and I don't run away.
“Have a little more of not enough
More of what is less but isn't love
Little of the same you're dreaming of
That's enough, that's enough.”
And though I fear pain and disappointment, I'm holding out my hands to you. I hold them out for an embrace. I hold them out for you to shackle them...
“And though I fear these shackles, like my darkness closing in
I will hold out my hands, I will hold out my hands...”
19.06.2008
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2 comments:
It was definetely worth the wait, I LOVE it!! I just love how you write these things girl, it's truly a gift... I wanna read it again! :DD
You are a master! Every word is a masterpiece and your usage of musical quotes is astounding. I love how i can hear the music as I read, BRAVO!
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